Adults Trapped in Chronic Mental Distress

My life feel so hard

Yk i really wanna die

I'm ok

“everything happening around me the good things and mainly the bad things things would've been better for my family if i wasn't here . I was being narcistic , egoistic and thought i am better than everyone and i wasn't ready to accept the all these happened because of me daily arguments with family members i didn't had a single day without conflict in my house all those routes to me submitted by /u/Commercial-Beat3115 [link] [comments]”

“I was born into a small, decent family, raised to be empathetic, and then when I can’t fn take anymore I’m left struggling thinking about what my family and friend(s) would go through if I were gone. I just can’t put them through it. I feel trapped here. I just want to be free. submitted by /u/Upset-Passenger3486 [link] [comments]”

“So recently I’ve been really going through it. Some personal things sent me into a very dark place, and after struggling with suicidal thoughts for a while but never being able to bring myself to do it, I turned to abusing prescription medications and alcohol. And people I’ve known for 10, 15, and even 20 years and they just ghosted me. And yes, I’m actively receiving treatment. But as soon as they realized how bad I was struggling, they just disappeared. People I know extremely well and who I t”

“I have GAD, PTSD and MDD, and my treatments are finally working a bit. Now when I’m not anxious, i have a lot of free time but with little interest or mental stamina for things like podcasts, online lessons, documentaries, or rabbit holes. And ambient music and cooking shows are too boring. I’m a quadriplegic so I can’t fill that empty hole with anything that’s physically demanding. Any suggestions? I haven’t read anything for a long time and I feel like I’ve lost that momentum submitted b”

“1 this is a fake account with a fake everything because i don't want anyone knowing who i am 2 my whole life has been really bad and i've been battling suicidal thoughts from as long as i remember (i am 28 today) 3 i've been going to therapy from when i was 12 years old and sadly today i can say everything became as when i started therapy 4 i've gone to 12 different doctors as i am in a third world country thar doesn't even recognise mental health as a real thing either you a”

“weed and drinking is a hit or miss, it feels like a gamble on whether or not im going to have a bad reaction food can taste soo good in the moment but make me feel horrible in the next 5 minutes i have sexual drive like twice a month tops i always feel sick while traveling my body has physical reactions from anxiety dawg even rollar coasters give me crazy whiplash whats even the point of ts bruh 🙄🙄 submitted by /u/Living-Skill-6856 [link] [comments]”

“I’m also a depressed RN with PTSD after years of neurosurgeon-related trauma. I found that once I was able to get away from that particular situation, it was so life affirming. Even to just work with other surgeons, specialties or a different clinic made a huge difference. Depression is so prevalent in nurses. Seeing a therapist who specializes in health care workers is incredibly important, too. Time is a great healer. That sense of shame is going to go away gradually. You have done nothing wro”

“I don’t know what to do from here. I’ve lost hope for a diagnosis. I’ve had so many tests and they’re all normal, and it just creates more and more frustration. I don’t even know what this could possibly be. At first it was just my stomach that was the issue. Constant nausea after everything, even water. But over time more and more symptoms pop up, like body and joint aches, hot flashes, headaches, weakness, dizziness, etc. I can’t stand for a long time without needing to sit. I can’t even enjoy”

“Sorry you are going through this. I completely understand how you’re feeling I went through something very similar in my younger years. Basically I was dealing with intense depression and anxiety as well as dissociation. Doing anything in this state was incredibly difficult and existence itself felt heavy and unbearable and I felt I was doomed. I want you to know there is hope for you. Know there is nothing wrong with you and you a person deserving of love and happiness like everyone else. No ma”

“I've lost trust going to doctors since I'm constantly getting gaslighted.... I wish these doctors could live in our bodies for a day.... I've gone to doctor after doctor I'm losing hope I'll ever get better.... Mu symptoms are constantly flaring up I hate being invisibly ill.... submitted by /u/Several_Round_7161 [link] [comments]”

“I’m a 23yo woman and I feel so hollow since I was a kid and times are hard lately and always. I was never chosen, loved, celebrated and respected. I tried everything: I changed my personality, the way I talk, I think, I look… and lately I tried my authenticity but that didn’t work. I don’t have friends because all of them betrayed me. I tried different places, different persons, same interests but I’m really convinced that I AM THE PROBLEM. My life isn’t worth living. I was born to love but not”

“I don’t know why but this birthday is just weighing much more heavily on me than the first 4. Maybes it’s because he starts kindergarten next week or maybe because I just turned 40 a couple of weeks ago but this birthday seems much more transformational. On the one hand I’m so excited for the future, so proud of the person he’s becoming, and overall I’m just really happy with my relationship with him. But there’s just a deep, deep sense of melancholy that’s hanging around my neck. Maybe there ar”

“Been depressed for the better part of the last 6yrs even tho I have learnt to make myself feel okay now usually, I just can't escape it, I let minor things affect me a lot at times and once it comes down I feel miserable for a month or so. I haven't really experienced any strong emotions of either sorrow or happiness since then, everything has been subdued. I neither progressed much, I used to be ambitious and believed I could be good at anything I do but it feels like a delusion now, I&”

“I genuinely can’t tell if I have some type of mental illness or whether i’m totally fine and just making shit up so people can pity me. For the past 7 years, I struggled with basic tasks, drinking water, showering, brushing teeth etc. Whenever I have to do something I think about doing it then procrastinate doing it for hours. For example every time I have to brush my teeth, I think about it for hours and then either not do it or go to the bathroom and when I do go to the bathroom I start spinni”

“Sorry you’re going through this. It’s possible you are going through a period of depression, as that could cause this emotional numbness and lack of energy. I myself have suffered from severe anxiety/depression and suffered the same types of symptoms. A therapist could help you rule out any other diagnosis and give you treatment for this. For me, getting therapy for my anxiety depression and getting on meds was a big help. While in this state, mental fatigue can be intense, so I kind of had to l”

“I wrote this in my notes app and no one knows any of this. I haven’t even told my husband. I thought I would share it here because maybe someone else here might relate to this. I’m not looking for advice, just to scream into the ether. No, my daughter does not have any medical issues. No, my family and husband’s family are not available to help. I do not have postpartum depression, I am happy when I am not doing childcare. ——— My secret is the only reason I work is to be away from my daughter. I”

“Today, I got the need to cry. I never really got to cry a lot, it's only when I get really overwhelmed, and even then it's never a loud cry, but more like silent tears every few minutes. I went to the walkway near the Seine (A river) in my city. A concrete walk with a few spots to sit at. I did, and I cried a bit. I stayed for a few hours. A few people walked by, but no one said anything. I really needed a hug, and I wish someone would have stopped to talk a bit. I don't blame them,”

“I'm 19 now, and at the age of 13 I thought I wouldn't make it past the age of 18. Only recently have I been tested for autism, and possibly ADHD. To put it simple, I feel useless and incapable of functioning like how others do around me. I don't have my driver's yet, I didn't apply for a college or had a plan to go to college in the first place. I don't know what to do and all I feel like is that time is running out for me, in a sense of figuring out how to get by in life”

“I struggle with low self-esteem, especially about how I look, and I often feel unwanted, not good enough or empty, almost like a robot. When I feel rejected, insecure or overwhelmed, my emotions can become very intense and I can lash out at people I love. Sometimes I deliberately say hurtful things or make someone else feel bad because it gives me temporary relief, even though I regret it afterwards. I also rely heavily on reassurance and other people's actions, such as attention, affection”

“Everyone is mad at me right now (or it sounds like it when they speak) and it makes me upset and more angry in general because I’m at a point where I want people to realise that I’m giving my all in hoping that something will stick and make my mental health and the situations triggering it, better. Not worse or more complicated. I do not want to be so hung up on these issues; I just cannot seem to get away from them or deal with them or whatever the healthy thing is I’m meant to do. I’m still tr”

“i decided if it doesn't get better when im 23 im gonna sui/de anyone else here thoght about it? submitted by /u/mintarubliza [link] [comments]”

“Hey fellow zebras 🦓 I’m back again lol. I’m genuinely just wondering if anyone else has experienced this because I’m starting to feel like I’m losing my mind a little. 😂 But the weirdest thing is this feeling that life doesn’t feel real. Like… I KNOW it’s real. I’m not confused about where I am or what’s happening. I know who I am, I know my fiancé is my fiancé, I know our house is our house, etc. But for some reason, it just doesn’t FEEL real. For example, we’ve owned our house for FIVE YEARS”

“You need to go to your closest public hospital and admit yourself. Your struggles require much more than a single convo or stranger comfort. You may be able to find resources online, free options in your area, depending on where you are located. Try asking your local library, community center, or findhelp.org. Possibly there are resources as part of a church, synagogue, etc.”

“It’s better mow than it was before I started therapy with a good therapist. I did it before with mediocre ones and didn’t see too much improvement. Still have a long ways to go…”

“Since I got chronically ill, I'm hesitant to buy things for the hobbies I had in my healthy life. Maybe I will be able to use those things, but maybe I won't... ever. Who knows? So I tend to not buy anything new and rather look for another treatment option. Right now there is a box of pencils on offer which I'm really interested in, but the last time I drew was half a year ago. I'd love to start drawing again, but I don't know if I actually can. Yes, I will probably be able t”

“I’m sitting here typing this because I genuinely don't know what else to do or who to talk to, and I just needed to put this out into the world. It feels like this year has been a non-stop wave of trauma, and I am completely overwhelmed. In just the past few months, everything in my life has collapsed: - My granddad suffered a stroke. - A close friend was shot right in front of me, and I almost got shot myself. The terror from that day hasn't left me. - My ex cheated on me and walked awa”

“Using a throwaway because I don't want it attached to my main account. I'm currently 2 months PP. I've struggled with my mental health since I was a preteen and Postpartum has been harder on me than I thought it would be, and I think I haven't even fully realized how much I am struggling. I'm so good at hiding it. I feel guilty becoming a stay at home mom because finances are gonna be so tight, it's like I can't relax because I'm constantly worried about money, bu”

“I might continue h*rming myself if you don't help me maybe. This is like an urgent request and please volunteer to help me. Please. For once in your lifetime, please help me for free. I can't have access to therapy no matter what. So I beg here🙏 I think I have Bpd(border personality disorder)for sure and it's killing me in several ways every single hour. It's getting worse. I am so sleep deprived, hungry, inj*red, helpless rn idk I think I'm going to explode. Plus idk why pe”

“Still need to deep-clean, but at least it’s something. Been thinking about buying a rug or a vase of flowers, or something. submitted by /u/PineappleInterrupted [link] [comments]”

“I don't know what I have. Niether do doctors. But ever since I remember myself I remember feeling pain, or getting tired after basic actions. I lived in a state of exhostion ever since I was a kid. My mom always assumed I'm faking to not go to school (which sometimes I was! Don't get me wrong I was a kid) but my mind actually can't comperhand people don't feel this way. That there are people that have a day go by without being in pain. Without being exhosted. Without wishing”

“/ TW health anxiety , triggering topics (23f) I don’t want to go into detail as I don’t want to trigger those with health anxiety + my own- but basically major panic attack like sensations kept happening night after night for 2 week… It obviously- seriously fucked me up mentally- So I ended up coming to stay with my parents for as long as I needed- the time in which I am meant to go back is coming up but I honestly am not sure if I am ready… My parents aren’t perfect as far as this all comes, th”

“So I (24) have been living with the suspicion of OCD for an absolute majority of my life. I’m not referring to organizing or cleaning. I’m referring to what could be describe as a hell hole that I can never properly explain to people. I don’t want to self-diagnose, and I’m not saying I am diagnosed. But there are times when I see people absolutely say they downright hate people who just suspect something is wrong is them. The issue for me is not just the money, but the crisis in my area as well.”

“I have a high functioning autism diagnosis with the side of general anxiety, and work more than full time in a grocery store. I don't want either one of those things to be true. Unfortunately, I can only make one of those not true. Here are just some examples of things I've thought of. Mechanic: Saying "it would be cool to know how to retore old cars" is significantly different from, "do routine oil changes and be told to perform work that is not immediately necessary for”

“I have a high functioning autism diagnosis with the side of general anxiety, and work more than full time in a grocery store. I don't want either one of those things to be true. Unfortunately, I can only make one of those not true. Mechanic: Saying "it would be cool to know how to retore old cars" is significantly different from, "do routine oil changes and be told to perform work that is not immediately necessary for maximizing shop revenue at the customer's expense.&quot”

“My family thinks that I don't like them and I won't be able to anything on my own. I don't know I'm kind of weird, I make mistakes and I make more and more, I can't control it I have ocd. I'm constantly thinking and feeling anxious, I remember in 2020 my mother was so stressed that she threatened to kill me because I was having an argument with my brother and it still happens, I'm crying while writing it, they think I do it on purpose. Whenever my father is mad is it&”

“I don't know what's fucking wrong with me, I can't fucking write anything, I wanna write something, I wanna write something good but I can't. Whenever I think I've got something, there's always something stopping me. Like I've got themes, I got ideas, I got scenes but I've got no plot for them. Like I think to sum up what I'm working on, in the best way I can since I don't even know what it's supposed to be about, it's like one of those odd counter”

“I just need to know I’m not alone. I’ve struggled with adhd my whole life and no it’s not just “I can’t focus” or “I can’t remember”. I truly feel like I’m drowning. I can think of 100 things at one time, but somehow I’m so overwhelmed, there’s no more room in my brain for any more information. I’ve tried the binders and all organization methods but I just can’t retain anything. I’m only 8 days away from my wedding and there’s so much yet nothing I can do it feels like. Even being medicated, I j”

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“Since getting sick I feel like a bargain bin if a person. I’m like struggling half the time physically still. I can’t be on my feet for long. I keep thinking I’ll wait until I get better ish to involve someone in my life. But will I truly get better? How do you date? How do you even explain what’s going on to someone? I’m 24 and I feel like most people would see me as a struggle to date bc of all I’m managing. How do you even use dating apps submitted by /u/lemonaderaid [link]”

“Hello everyone, I think I kinda have depression..because ever since I was 11 I've always wanted to die up until now (17) I never did any self harm but I think my thoughts will stop if I get help or go to a therapist to get help (which is a rare possibility it would happen). I may have ocd but I'm undiagnosed, I do things I don't want to do because my mind keep having thoughts like if you don't do this this will happen type shi it's frustrating. Also I think I have social anxi”

“Feedback is appreciated I don’t know how to cry express my sadness to my friends or family I always say fine cause I don’t want to open up and I don’t cry for years at a time likw long stretches and 3 years ago was ghe last time but I don’t know how to cry and I feel hollow like my sadness is a physical weight and ghe one person I had to talk to about ghis cause we both had issues blocked and deleted their account from anything I could reach them with I feel loved but lonely submitted by &”

“Some preface: My fiancee (I'll refer to her as F) and I got pregnant after only 6 months of being together. We lived in different cities and just started spending more and more time together. I worked, she was finishing up her studies. We weren't ready for a kid, especially her, but we decided to keep it. Luckily, I had an apartment, my job is paying enough to satisfy all our needs and at some point something switched in my brain that I'm going to be a dad and that is the most import”

“For those of you who live alone... how do you cope? I have ME/CFS (and some other nonsense) and leave the house once or twice per month for appointments and spend the rest of the time recovering from them! All daily tasks are a struggle and it's impossible to look after myself properly if I'm in a crash. The only support that I get from family is help to get to appointments and everything else is on me. It's difficult and I'm in constant PEM. I find myself wishing that there were”

“Long story short, looking for advice on some things as I seem to stuck in a cycle I don't know how to break out of, and I'm not sure what to change, but something needs to change! Chronic (semi chronic?) sleep deprivation results in me not being able to fall asleep. This is a little ironic to me, but it also happens/happened with my toddler. Once you're overtired, it's harder to go to sleep. When you're consistently overtired, your body really struggles to go to sleep. I fina”

“Please bear with me, it might go all over the place and be very long. My mental health started going down the shitter around June of 2018. I had just finished 9th grade and when I got home my mother told me I had to start doing her online classes for her to get her BSN so that she doesn't lose her job. I asked her why me and not my two older siblings. She said because one is about to start college and the other getting their law degree. So I ended up caving and started doing her school work”

“It's been like this for at least 2 years and been getting stronger with each month. It's come to the point that I don't trust my "normal" weeks anymore, I know that in a week or two depressive symptoms will reoccur. Negative thoughts are always somewhere in the background. And with autumn and winter coming, the symptoms will become even more severe. I've already started seeing professionals, but the next appointment is in a week. I am too curious to wait and want to fin”

“I'm going through the diagnostic process for hEDS at the moment, and I'm not sure how to talk to my family about it. The fact of the matter for me is that I'm in so much pain I'm struggling to walk. I've hired a wheelchair, and if the source of this pain isn't something picked up on scans, then I'll likely be using it part time. I'm very good at hiding my symptoms, and have done this from my family forever basically. Because of this, my family haven't seen how”

“hi 26f, i recently got diagnosed with PDD and i probably have severe anxiety as well. i tell u it’s been hell everyday and i just want to end things. i didn’t know that i would be feeling this because growing up, i was this brave, independent, witty young girl. idk what happened to me now. i blame it on my past relationships cuz they changed me. if i could go back i wouldn’t meet those two people who made me feel this way. and the saddest part is i have to solve this on my own even if i didn’t c”

“Im 19 been abused and been through so much trauma like older men exes doing things to me randims doing things to me list goes on. Even therapists have asked me how im still standing here but ANYWAYS. I need support and advice on if i should idk i guess be worried? I have always been parinoid i uses to visually hallucinate as a kid that eent a way but the parinoia and every sound becoming insanity gets worse every year and hurts my head ive been losing sleep. But recently i found out drawing help”

“I'm so alone. Not metaphorically as if I just feel lonely, I literally am alone. I have no friends, no siblings, and I'm not close to my parents (which i only have one of). All of my grandparents are dead. You don't think of how much family experiences impact you until you're alone in a silent house at night with no one that you could even conceivably speak to and no memories to dream about. Ive never gone to my grandparents house and eaten their food. I've never gotten to pl”

“Hi. so atm im not diagnosed with any chronic illness but i have developed some pretty bad health anxiety due to me having health issue after health issue this year and its caused me to also be worried about me becoming chronically ill or disabled. im specifically scared of my bf leaving me bc ive been having so many issues. to those of u who r in a relationship what is it like? im just so scared he’ll leave me bc this isnt what he “signed up for” and wants someone “normal” submitted by &#3”

“Will preface all of this by saying I am privileged in many ways know many others face far more difficult challenges. With that said, I struggle with my mental health and have a limited support system so don’t have many people to share these feelings with. I’m a FTM to a 15 month old and have been back at work (remotely) for about a year. My husband used to have a job with a long commute to the office 3 days/week, but as of last week he has a new job with an equally long commute requiring him in”

“Confronting your impermenance is liberating and transformative. Check out the Tibetan Book of The Dead..that helps me with my own anxiety.”

“This summer specifically was when I felt like I needed my mom the most. I deeply miss her every single day of my life. I started crying writing this post. I don’t know when my heart will heal, when I will get over this.”

“almost two years, october 2024 i wouldve been clean from restriction and recovered from anorexia and bp habits. i feel like a failure and that im too unstable for my friends i dont deserve to be around people. last time i went through this i brought someone down with me and it was one of the worst things ive ever done. my closest friend doesn’t actually care about me anyways which feels “freeing”. i don’t want to hate myself i want to be better for other people. i don’t want to be damaging. i ju”

“https://imgur.com/a/69RnMnQ I feel like a complete moron and a terrible homeowner and maybe I just need to vent but I'm genuinely lost and feel like punching a wall or screaming or something. I bought my apartment last fall. A couple of months in, my water heater exploded and spilled water all over my floors. I had the heater replaced but my floors started to cup, to the point where the doors to the closet containing the heater (and the washer, pictured slightly in some of these photos) woul”